Blog: Running Through My Mind
In seven days’ time I will be running Brighton Marathon.

Taper Tantrums, Maranoia and Denial

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In seven days’ time I will be running Brighton Marathon.

This is likely to be my final blog before The Big Day. A day which started with a 10km race 12 months’ ago, followed by a wave of post-race hysteria, a long period of denial and then four months of dedicated training. A day culminating in running 26.2 miles on Sunday 12th April 2015 in Brighton.

This also means I am now solidly in the middle of a 2-week taper.

Tapering officially means reducing the intensity of training in the period immediately before a race, usually between 1 and 3 weeks before.

Unofficially, tapering is a time for tantrums, maranoia, denial...

These are just a few of mine so far:

  • I think my new-ish, super supportive trainers are wrong for me and causing foot and ankle pain.

  • I want to run on the trails.

  • I want to run.

  • I want to tackle the gardening.

  • I don’t have the time to just do nothing.

  • I don’t want this cold.

  • Why isn’t everyone sponsoring me? Don’t they know how far it is? Or how worthy the cause is? *

  • I want my stupid fibula to behave.

  • I want to eat all the Easter eggs.

  • I want my physio not to postpone my appointment because their child is poorly when I have a list of questions as long as my arm to ask her.

*stamps feet*

  • I think my new-ish, super supportive trainers are wrong for me and causing foot and ankle pain.

  • I don’t want to eat out in case people have the lurgy. Or the chef might have the lurgy. I can’t catch a bug this close to the marathon.

  • What about the coffee I got from the garage? What if the barista has a cold?

  • Maybe I shouldn’t risk going out at all…

  • Have I done enough long runs? I don’t think I have. I did 17 and 20, but the 20 was slow and I walked a bit because of the ankle pain from my stupid trainers. Should I do the 20 again? Should I do further?

  • What if I have done too much and not left enough time to taper?

  • Why is my plan telling me to run a race-pace 12km tomorrow? Surely I should be resting?

  • What if I don’t feel ok on the day? What if my fuelling doesn’t work?

  • What if I forget something?

  • What if I can’t collect my race pack?

  • I had better write a list. I will write a list of what to do this week before the marathon. I will write a meal plan to ensure I eat enough carbs. I will need a list for what to wear and what to take with me on marathon day.

  • I had better write a list of the lists I need to write …

*head explodes*

  • I think my new-ish, super supportive trainers are wrong for me and causing foot and ankle pain. What do you mean marathon training hurts? Don’t be ridiculous. Actually, I think it’s my new slippers. They aren’t very supportive and I wear them a lot.

  • I might still get close to 4 hours, despite the ankles, the leg, the proof during recent long runs that I can’t sustain that pace. The adrenaline and atmosphere on the day will push me along.

  • My sports massage during the week will sort me out. I will feel like a new woman after. My legs will be as fresh as daisies and I will smash that 26.2 miles and still be ready for more.

  • Work will be absolutely fine the week after.

  • I have not gone completely, stark-raving, marathon-training, carb-loading, bug-avoiding, niggle-denying, list-writing mad. Nope. Not me. Not at all.

*sticks head in sand*

I know this is all normal and everyone else is probably feeling the same. I know I have done the best I can. I know to control the things I can and not worry about the things I can’t control. But knowing these things is an intellectual process and right now, in the final taper week before a marathon rationality is just an abstract concept.

Well, that’s me. See you on the other side of that finish line.

I am off to bin my slippers and write a list….

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